rasa sakit itu bisa jadi candu, sekalipun menderita tidak mau diobati, sekalipun sehat ingin jadi pesakitan lagi *bsdm banget :))

lalu bagaimana saya berada di akhir seperti saat ini?

bangkit dari kasur dengan seperangkat kebaya dan kain songket

jubah beludru hitam dan topi bertali

tanpa sangul begitulah rencananya

semua orang hanya ingin bagian akhir bahagianya saja

sedangkan saya harus belajar keras untuk mencandui prosesnya

sayang maafkan jika aku tidak begitu sanggup menggimbangi derap langkahmu
hingga setiap lisan yang ku sampaikan tak pernah menang melawan air mata
berulang mengulang terulang ulang
dan sekarang aku cari siang dikegelapan malam

harapku murah hatimu bersabar mecari senyumku di atara keluh kesahku
maafkan langkah kakiku yang lamban
teruslah berjalan, suatu saat akan ku susul
meski tidak mudah
dan semua ini akan berulang mengulang terulang ulang

hanya sesimpul senyum yang sanggup aku berikan 
semoga kau tak jemu
berulang mengulang terulang ulang

Honestly i miss being a high school girl, have fun every night and naive

but it's been 3 years passed that days.. nothing change, i'm  still sweet and cute.wkwkwkwkw

let's back to reality: 21 years old, going outside town to serve the society, as fast as possible finish the thesis, and seriously think about future. (hopefully) :p aaammmiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnn

freeze

there is a moment in your life when the clock stop ticking. 

your breath hold in God's Hands and your eyes wide open. 

then the clock ticking start again, you realize something happen. 

it's hard to explain what that's mean, but you will never forget it.

little goals

An old fashioned house, white roof and white wooden fences
Wide backyard, planting vegetables, green grass and a big tree at the front
And also it will be greater at suburbs area
nice place to raise children
what a simple life!
is it sounds too much? hehehehehe

i talk to her

hopes is risky thing. more you want it, more you'll get hurt.
i said it to myself everyday and everyday i forgot it.
ya i know... this is my common bullshit.

kiss

no one want to pick

you don't need pot to your life

or even someone to take care of you

all they see is you grow instantly everywhere

you had name but who's cares

forgotten as fast as the wind blow your seed

yes you're beautiful

please keep growing rapidly

soon they will see you as an ocean 

the meadow of life and death met as a couple

colorful at every fragile petals

they can't blink their eyes

forever and ever i kiss you wildflower