feeling like a child

i'm 20th next year T.T i'll miss 'belasan tahun' 11st-19th. people call it 'transition' from child to be adult. there's a lot things change in me, expect my body.haha i deep inside my heart, i don't wanna be older. maybe that's why my body not growing, because i deny it :p almost 10 years past, i met a lot of people, countless story happen, worst things, best things, family, school, friends, foe, love, hate and everything! *my head spinning, nostalgic*

sometime i feel still like a child. for me the best gift from God to human it's childhood time. look at a children, they just just play. playing is their job. they don't really think about how about the next day, seems fool but pure. i miss it so much. i look at myself now, think that i become a paranoid. too much worried about future. i try to just enjoy it, but it's not too easy. Thank God i met the persons, some amazing person who can make me still real, still alive, still young, still spoiled, still innocent, still like a child. the arms that can make me feel safe to rest for a while, i feel stronger and weak at the same time, then continue the life again. i know that i must keep moving on in this life, i can't stay in the past. Thank God *Alhamdulillah* for the gift :)

i wanna grow up (not grow old). FOREVER YOUNG YEAAH!