mama

my favorite things to do at home is talking, talking with my family member. my father mostly talking about educations and his work, my brother mostly talking about...errh random hahahaha, and my mother talking about life (house, future, gossip, family). we like to do afternoon chat with tea or coffee, singkong goreng or cake. my favorite time!

in the end of this month, my father and my brother work out of city. just me and my mother at home. then the conversation begin..

i rub mother's back,

mama : who is your boyfriend?

me : i don't have boyfriend ma

(i stop rub her back -_-)

mama : good

me : ya, i'm not on the mood to make a new love relationship. one year later or more maybe. hahaha

mama : it's good. you still have a lot of 'boy' friends

me : haha. i think they more assume me as a boy, same like them. not a 'girl', i'm just a friend.

mama : as long as they still respect and not gauche at you. i trust that your friends are good.

me : yes they are ma

my mother never really care about my love story, but sometimes she surprising me with her surprising questions, like "where is (name of my ex :p)?", "are you still be a friend with him?" she open my photo folder, she know some familiar face, and she said "that's him!" she make me speechless. hahaha. know that she care, but her question -_-

when i do 'homework' like cleaning house floor, sweep, or arrange household, she said "you must be a neat girl, we don't know about your future. you will have your own family, your husband..bla bla bla" she talking about if my life not so 'straight', she mean that if i must work very hard first to get 'a good life', she wants me to ready in all conditions in the future. she want me to be strong and independent.

i think that someday i will leave this family, make my own family, i will totally live for my future family. my parents will give all them trust to my future husband to have me. hahahaha but it sad you know. for now, i will do my best to my family, then i will prepare myself to make a family. i wish that i'm not make my future husband feel sorry to choose me as his wife (ho?) hahaha. amin i wanna be like my mother. she a good teacher, she still have many time to care with her family, she still have time to cook for lunch and dinner. she a good wife, great women!

this soul

sometimes i like to make a conversation with my self, like a monologue. i asking my self then i answered it by my self. it seems like i have mental sickness right? until someday my friend told me there's 'someone' following me. someone that have a similar face like mine, but i can't see her. she invisible..who is she?

my friend told me that she has a long hair, she pale, even she tintless! and she look sad.. i ask my friend, who is she? is she a genie? is she bad for me? is she protect me? why she following me? my friend said, that 'her' is me! she is a part of me, not like a genie. she doesn't give any bad effect for me. i ever read a book about 'someone' like her, it's written that everyone have 'someone' like her. but they only following us until we grow as little kids. in my case 'she' following me until now and i still don't know why.

maybe unwittingly i been make conversations with her, but i don't realize it. she so special for me. i don't have a sister. so think she was my sister. sometimes i think that would be fun if i have a sister. because i can share t-shirt with her or sometimes borrow her money. hehehe but 'my sister' is invisible. i can't share with her. i worried with her, my friend said that she pale and look sad. if she visible i will ask her about her feeling, why she sad.

she part of me, so maybe she feel what i feel. like a mirror, maybe she a true reflection of me. yeah it enough to explain about what i feel in this blog, what i got in my life, the hurt and pain . she saw every little thing that happen in my life, she the witness of all my crime. hahaha even i never see her, i feel guilty to make her sad. i wonder how she looks like now. i don't know where is she now. is she following beside, behind, or she seeing me type this post, i don't know.

last sunday, my friend suddenly said something that surprising me. my friend said that my 'twin' come to her. she said that she mad because of us, cause we like to home so late (night) . and she ordered me something, she wants me to be 'good looking?' if i go out home. i'm speechless -_-. i realize that not good for a girl home so late, but how about to be beauty as she wants? i don't understand. should i do something like make up? use lipstick, blush on, mascara, eyeliner, or mask?! is faking my face. i guess she wants me to looks 'more' like a girl. hahaha my boyish hair style is doesn't match to looks like kinda 'feminine', i don't wanna act like trans gender :| but i will try it for you twin!

sometimes irrational things in the world doesn't need explanations to believe it. i never meet her but i believe she truly exist. i believe that she around me even i can't see her. i love her like i love my self. it would be scared maybe if i meet her, but i hope i can talk with her someday. i hope when i meet her, she looks colored like real human, perhaps it will be our first and last meet. we will talk heart to heart :)

mereka bersih

hingga saat ini saya masih sering ditanyai mengenai jurusan yang saya pilih untuk kuliah. banyak yang tidak tahu, banyak yang meremehkan, ada juga yang mencemooh. beberapa pertanyaan yang biasanya ditujukan ke saya :

1. PAUD? apa itu?
2. hahaha. PAUD? jadi ngurus anak-anak TK lah ya?
3. kok mau jadi guru PAUD?
4. PAUD ada S1? kan ada tu kursus jadi guru PAUD.
5. jadi guru PAUD ya? ngurusin anak-anak kecil buang air lah ya
6. dan lain-lain

foto dari

kenyataannya masih banyak yang tidak tahu apa itu Pendidikan Anak Usia Dini dan masih banyak yang meremehkan pentingnya pendidikan bagi anak usia dini. rentangan anak usia dini menurut pasal 28 UU Sisdiknas no.20/2003 ayat 1 adalah 0-6 tahun. sementara menurut kajian rumpun keilmuan PAUD dan penyelenggaraannya di beberapa negara, PAUD dilaksanakan sejak usia 0-8 tahun. masa usia dini yang disebut sebagai masa peka atau golden age, dimana kemampuan otak anak berkembang hingga 80% sering kali terabaikan. padahal ketika rentang anak-anak hingga dewasa, kemampuan otak tinggal tersisa untuk berkembang 20%.

apa yang diharapkan dari diselenggarakannya pendidikan bagi anak usia dini?

mengoptimalkan segala potensi yang dimiliki oleh anak (fisik-motorik,kognitif,bahasa,kreativitas,matematik-logis,kecerdasan spiritual,kecerdasan sosial- emosional,seni-musik,dan lain-lain) demi mempersiapkan anak menempuh jenjang pendidikan berikutnya, bahkan banyak hal yang terjadi pada masa kecil kerap berpengaruh saat anak menjadi orang dewasa. banyak yang meremehkan anak. menganggap mereka tidak tahu apa-apa dan mudah saja dibodohi. orang dewasa seringkali mengabaikan anak hingga anak kemudian berkembang dengan tidak baik.

jujur saya tidak tahu kalau PAUD sangat penting diberikan kepada anak ketika belum merasakan bangku perkuliahan. saya sendiri memilih jurusan ini tanpa paksaan siapapun, tanpa intervensi sedikit pun dari kedua orang tua. motivasi terbesar saya adalah karena saya menyukai anak-anak. kadang saya berharap untuk bisa kembali lagi jadi anak TK. mata mereka bening sekali, polos dan murni. belum tersentuh kewajiban, beban pikiran, dan hal-hal yang mengesalkan seperti orang dewasa alami. mereka jujur, orang-orang dewasa banyak yang munafik. pikiran mereka bersih, tidak picik seperti orang-orang dewasa. saya rindu menjadi anak-anak!

bermain adalah dunia anak. bermain salah satu kebutuhan anak. karena itulah saya mencintai mereka. orang dewasa menganggap bermain adalah lah remeh, bagi anak bermain itu penting. sehingga kehidupan anak selalu ceria. saya ingin selalu dekat dengan hal-hal menyenangkan itu. TK, Play Group, Raudatul Athfal, dan sejenisnya sudah pasti dekat dengan menggambar, menempel, bercerita, bermain, menggunting, menyanyi, menari, pokoknya senang-senang! tidak seperti pelajaran SD, SMP, SMA yang fokus terhadap pencapaian NILAI. lewat bermain lah anak belajar. bermain sambil belajar, bukan belajar sambil bermain.

jadi guru mungkin dulu tidak terpikirkan oleh saya. saya senang menggambar, meskipun hasilnya tidak pernah bagus kemudian terpikir lah untuk jadi arsitek. tapi jurusan di SMA saya pilih IPS :p. saya suka sejarah, terpikir untuk menjadi arkeologi, bahkan saya ingin tes lagi untuk kuliah di UGM arkeologi. tapi semuanya sudah begini. masuk di Pendidikan Guru Pendidikan Anak Usia Dini bukan suatu keterpaksaan. semoga saya mampu menjadi pendidik yang baik bagi generasi penerus bangsa. jangan ada lagi anak yang nakal seperti saya lah minimal. hahaha kalau sudah didik sejak dini untuk berlaku jujur mungkin bangsa kita dapat terbebas dari korupsi dan kebobrokan moral lainnya. Amin

texting is our (bad) habit

photo from clik me :D

beberapa (baca: banyak) orang saya lihat sibuk dengan ponselnya masing-masing. mata yang fokus menatap layar ponsel dengan jemari tangan yang sibuk memencet satu persatu keypad ponsel. padahal disekitar ada orang (baca: manusia) sesungguhnya. entah mengapa beberapa (baca: banyak) orang tetap saja beraktivitas dengan ponselnya. sudah berubahkah cara kita berkomunikasi?

terlihat beberapa orang duduk semeja disebuah cafe atau tempat semacam cafe, remaja berumur belasan tahun sepertinya. masing-masing memegang ponsel, fokus memandang ponsel, mereka sama sekali tidak bertegur sapa di meja tersebut. entah apa makna dari mereka berkumpul di tempat itu. semua sibuk dengan dunia di dalam ponsel.

apa yang dilakukan dengan ponsel? teknologi sudah begitu maju sekarang. situs jejaring sosial juga beragam (facebook,twitter,plurk,yahoo messenger, dll). beberapa ponsel juga menyediakan fitur-fitur yang memudahkan pengguna menjaring-jaring di jejaring sosial (seperti: ponsel merek BlackBerry dengan BBMnya sebagai contoh :p). ya yang dilakukan beberapa orang tersebut menulis pesan lewat ponsel (texting) mengudate status atau semacam itu lah di jejaring sosial.

apa yang menyebabkan kita seperti ini? (saya menggunakan kita karena pada kenyataannya saya juga begitu). mungkin keinginan kita untuk diakui dalam bagian dari suatu hal atau keinginan eksistensi kita yang begitu kuat sehingga kita berlebihan dalam texting. ini buruk atau tidak? menurut saya BURUK. karena merubah cara kita berinteraksi. hubungan yang hangat saat bertatap muka jadi kurang hangat lagi. kita menjadi berbahasa hanya dengan simbol huruf dan angka.

yang buruknya lagi, kita menjadi mengumbar-ngumbar diri kita. dimana letak privasi? semua sudah dikatakan lewat aktivitas texting kita. tidak ada suatu kesan yang mendalam sebagai suatu sentuhan yang sangat pribadi dari personal kita terhadap orang-orang yang spesial. menulis kata-kata kotor, makian, dan kasar juga sepertinya lumrah saja dilakukan. dan jujur saja, kata-kata yang dilontarkan lewat alfabet tersebut sangat mudah sekali dimanipulasi (berbohong,merampot dan minyak angin dalam bahasa melayu) ketimbang berbicara dengan bertatap muka.

dengan adanya jejaring sosial mestinya memberikan manfaat yang baik bagi kita, gunakan dengan penuh kesadaran dan tidak berlebihan.

munafik juga saya menulis ini semua ya. hahaha. sebagai bahan renungan saja. saya anggap ini cara saya untuk menampar diri sendiri, menyadarkan diri saya untuk menjadi pribadi yang baik.

sight

the original photos from
*PhoeebStock > couple
~soraneko > eye

what will you do if it happen in front of your eyes?

my man!

i'm in love with Leonardo DiCaprio since i watch him in Romeo + Juliet. then DiCaprio shake the world with his role on Titanic. i love the way he smile, and the way his sight from corner of his eyes. nowday he looks mature (old :p) with whisker on his face. well this is not just about his face. his acting never disappoint me. my favorite role is in Catch Me If You Can, he looks young, wild, smart, and passionate.

his full name is Leonardo Wilhelm DiCaprio. Born in Los Angeles November 11 1974. His mother is German and his father is Italian. his girlfriend Anne Vyalitsyna is Russian model. I thought he will never get married (i wish) hahaha. he has The Leonardo DiCaprio Foundation, concern about environmental issues and wild life. visit http://leonardodicaprio.org/

DiCaprio said :

"The best thing about acting is that I get to lose myself in another character and actually get paid for it. It's a great outlet. As for myself, I'm not sure who I am. It seems that I change every day."

it's great! thats why he always total on his role.

his latest film is Inception. i watched it with Raisa and Dwi. i feel so highly entertain by this movie! complexity of the story, great acting of the cast, amazing special effect, and Leonardo DiCaprio :))

in my opinion, think DiCaprio become a reference to judge a film (is it good or bad), if DiCaprio is one of the cast, i will have no reason to not watch the film.

a cup of vanilla

reconstruction complete!

new layout, new header, and now everyone can comment my post :D (special thanks for Raisa). original picture of my header is by ~mauser, little touch of Adobe Photoshop CS3. i choose a tea cup because it's mean a lot for me. i can pour various type of flavor into the cup, sweet, bitter, sour, everything! as i write my blog, i write everything! i realize that my blog still far far away from good, but so far what i can do is just like this. enjoy my blog people :)

under reconstruction

will come back soon

Musim Baru

saya kembali ke lantai dansa! setelah 2 bulan lebih merenung dan mengoreksi diri, diam dan mengamati apa yang terjadi. saya akan tetap mengoreksi diri saya setelah kepulangan saya ini. sekarang saya merasa sudah lebih membaik dan ingin lebih baik lagi. melakukan yang perlu dan menyenangkan, tidak mau hal yang sia-sia dan merugikan. hidup cuma sekali jadi nikmati dan berbuat yang terbaik di dalamnya.