sometimes i like to make a conversation with my self, like a monologue. i asking my self then i answered it by my self. it seems like i have mental sickness right? until someday my friend told me there's 'someone' following me. someone that have a similar face like mine, but i can't see her. she invisible..who is she?
my friend told me that she has a long hair, she pale, even she tintless! and she look sad.. i ask my friend, who is she? is she a genie? is she bad for me? is she protect me? why she following me? my friend said, that 'her' is me! she is a part of me, not like a genie. she doesn't give any bad effect for me. i ever read a book about 'someone' like her, it's written that everyone have 'someone' like her. but they only following us until we grow as little kids. in my case 'she' following me until now and i still don't know why.
maybe unwittingly i been make conversations with her, but i don't realize it. she so special for me. i don't have a sister. so think she was my sister. sometimes i think that would be fun if i have a sister. because i can share t-shirt with her or sometimes borrow her money. hehehe but 'my sister' is invisible. i can't share with her. i worried with her, my friend said that she pale and look sad. if she visible i will ask her about her feeling, why she sad.
she part of me, so maybe she feel what i feel. like a mirror, maybe she a true reflection of me. yeah it enough to explain about what i feel in this blog, what i got in my life, the hurt and pain . she saw every little thing that happen in my life, she the witness of all my crime. hahaha even i never see her, i feel guilty to make her sad. i wonder how she looks like now. i don't know where is she now. is she following beside, behind, or she seeing me type this post, i don't know.
last sunday, my friend suddenly said something that surprising me. my friend said that my 'twin' come to her. she said that she mad because of us, cause we like to home so late (night) . and she ordered me something, she wants me to be 'good looking?' if i go out home. i'm speechless -_-. i realize that not good for a girl home so late, but how about to be beauty as she wants? i don't understand. should i do something like make up? use lipstick, blush on, mascara, eyeliner, or mask?! is faking my face. i guess she wants me to looks 'more' like a girl. hahaha my boyish hair style is doesn't match to looks like kinda 'feminine', i don't wanna act like trans gender :| but i will try it for you twin!
maybe unwittingly i been make conversations with her, but i don't realize it. she so special for me. i don't have a sister. so think she was my sister. sometimes i think that would be fun if i have a sister. because i can share t-shirt with her or sometimes borrow her money. hehehe but 'my sister' is invisible. i can't share with her. i worried with her, my friend said that she pale and look sad. if she visible i will ask her about her feeling, why she sad.
she part of me, so maybe she feel what i feel. like a mirror, maybe she a true reflection of me. yeah it enough to explain about what i feel in this blog, what i got in my life, the hurt and pain . she saw every little thing that happen in my life, she the witness of all my crime. hahaha even i never see her, i feel guilty to make her sad. i wonder how she looks like now. i don't know where is she now. is she following beside, behind, or she seeing me type this post, i don't know.
last sunday, my friend suddenly said something that surprising me. my friend said that my 'twin' come to her. she said that she mad because of us, cause we like to home so late (night) . and she ordered me something, she wants me to be 'good looking?' if i go out home. i'm speechless -_-. i realize that not good for a girl home so late, but how about to be beauty as she wants? i don't understand. should i do something like make up? use lipstick, blush on, mascara, eyeliner, or mask?! is faking my face. i guess she wants me to looks 'more' like a girl. hahaha my boyish hair style is doesn't match to looks like kinda 'feminine', i don't wanna act like trans gender :| but i will try it for you twin!
sometimes irrational things in the world doesn't need explanations to believe it. i never meet her but i believe she truly exist. i believe that she around me even i can't see her. i love her like i love my self. it would be scared maybe if i meet her, but i hope i can talk with her someday. i hope when i meet her, she looks colored like real human, perhaps it will be our first and last meet. we will talk heart to heart :)
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